I have been getting lazy to update our Chuas' blog... Realized that the last updated blog was 2 months ago! Ha...
Daddy Chua switches to a new job lately which require less flying. So he has more time for Cs. I need him to bond with Cs so that I can get out! To take a breather! Sometimes staying at home with two toddlers with age so near is a challenge! Siblings rivalry, jealousy, fighting for attention are simply too much for me to digest. I know that this is a growing up phase, who doesn't know right? But really not easy...
Of cos there are times whereby my Cs are lovable, cute. It is when they play happily together, protect & take care of each other & laugh happily together.
Very soon, in fact next month, Cayden boy is attending the same CC as Cayenne. *Tears* I'm such a useless Mummy! I already had the experience during Cayenne's time (December 2010) but I just cannot help but to feel sad and 不舍得 again... Just recalled back Cayenne crying & struggling badly when the teacher carried her inside... My heart still aches when I recalled...
I think (I hope so) my Cayden boy can adapt better. *Pray hard* It is really tormenting to go through the whole crying process again. *Stress* *Frustration*
It is good to let him go to school to learn and play & good for me too. I have been "stuck" in the house for too long. I hardly meet my friends (I wonder if my friends have already erased me in their lives), no ME Time unless you say those hours when Cs are napping, sleeping are my ME time...
I hardly chat with anyone except my Cs, grannies or aunties whom I meet downstairs @ playground, supermarkets etc... I feel so sorry for myself when I pen this down! Haha... But of cos I cannot blame anyone since I made the decision to be a SAHM.
If only I can be "hard hearted" to put my Cs in CC from 7am to 7pm, I won't be staying at home.
If only my Mother is still around, I won't be staying at home either.
So many "If only"... Haha...
Now I keep myself that this difficult phase will pass, I just have to bear with it & it will be over. I guess once both Cs in CC, I got at least some hours for myself to rest & re-charge. I'll be a better person, a better Mummy to my Cs...
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