Mummy's Thoughts - Part 13

I wonder how Cayenne will react when this coming Monday, 26th October 09, I'll be bringing her to Lily's place again. I have asked Lily to help me to look after Cayenne again till preferably till end Dec before I make the FINAL decision. I desperately need these two months to sort things out, clear my mind & have a heart to heart, detailed discussion with Dennis.

Cayenne has "glued" to me, I simply cannot be out of her sight! To the extent, I felt "suffocated". I badly need a break from her! ;p

I hope that she can behave well at Lily's place while I return to work. Well, I have mixed feelings about leaving Cayden at home with my helper for so long hours even though my Dad is around. So far my helper has been a good help to me when I'm at home. When I'm not at home for such long hours, I'm not too sure. You all can say I'm just being paranoid, a "worrier", but I do have my worries. I'll have to start to re-assess my helper again while I'm not at home. Of cos I do hope that my helper can continue to give her best in taking care of my Cayden while I'm at work.

Mixed feelings of going to seperate Cayenne and Cayden for these coming two months. I wonder if there will be any impact on my Cayenne again. As in she is going to Lily's place, away from me, away from her 弟弟...