Actually looked very forward to spend time with my Darling Cayenne. But things seemed to not going towards my wishes. Or maybe I was too RIGID? EPECTATIONS too high? Sigh...
Was pretty upset last night that I felt like I needed to go away. (Oops, think I have said countless times?) I kept telling Darling Cayenne to be good girl, behave properly, be independent in case Mummy isn't around. Ha... SUPER FUNNY. As if Darling Cayenne can understand me.
Going to make a MAJOR decision soon but SCARED. Felt there is something not going right for me, my life. My life? DO I STILL HAVE MY LIFE after 15th February 2008??
UPSET, UNHAPPY, ANGRY are the three words that describe me NOW. & the cause of it? YOU. YOU SHOULD KNOW.