Mummy's Thoughts - Part 7

Ever since my helper is here, I'm not very happy or comfortable with a stranger in the house. No doubt she is here to help me in taking care of my kids and do housework plus cooking. She indeed helps to lessen my Dad's burden in cooking the meals. (My Dad is the family's cook). So my helper does most of the cookings now.

Am trying to get used to her in our house, I believe my helper is trying her very best to adapt into my family & especially towards me. I'm a very fast paced person. Everything must do FAST & clean. So I believe she feels some stress. But sometimes I wonder if Indonesian helpers are SLOWER? Or Am I too FAST? ... ... ...

Been telling my helper to do things faster in terms of housework while Cayden is sleeping. Reason being that she can have some or more rest during the day.

Yesterday, my SIL called me up & she thought that I was napping. I told her "FAT HOPE!" I was doing some housework. My SIL was surprised, she thought my helper should be the one doing. Haha... I thought so too! But somehow or rather, I ended up doing housework even with my helper around. What an ironical joke!

1st Saturday without Dennis around...

Had an extremely BUSY SHACKED TIRED Saturday. No joke. Woke up ard 6.30am & been "working" non-stop till 9pm. Arghh...

I shouldn't have stated 6.30am woke up, since I gotta to handle Cayden during the midnight. Haha...

Well anyway, nowadays Cayenne is like a koala to me. Have to carry her if go downstairs & even @ home, Jann wanted to bring her go downstairs to at least let me had a short breather also cannot. Initially she wanted to go but as I needed to talk to Jann about something, Cayenne saw me (They were already outside the gate & Cayenne wanted Jann to carry her) & refused to go down with Jann. Kept holding onto the gate. Sigh...

This young lady lately very strange. Don't want to wear her diapers. Kinda of use alittle harsh tone and force on her. "Ah..." She cried. Cayenne is such a Missy, alittle bit will cry or scream. Can't stand her man! Worse is that those are fake cries and screams...

So today got "scolded" by me at least 3 times? Or more? Felt so tired, really. So many things on hand that I have to take care of. I handled Cayenne mostly while my helper took care of Cayden. But on and off, I still gotta to care for my son right. Just couldn't let my helper do all the job right. & on top of that, I need to supervise and TRAIN my helper to be multi-task in order not to waste time. Time to me now is simply too precious! Haha...

Busy till 12pm then took my breakfast! Could you believe that?! & my lunch... 3plus in the afternoon. Dinner is normal time 7plus in the evening...

Conclusion of my 1st Saturday without Dennis around (TO HELP of cos) : I almost went "mad"! ;p Lucky Jann was around to help me with my 2 kids. Thanks, Jann! Really appreciated your help.

Am thinking right now... Am I cut to be a SAHM? Hmm...