Time alone with Cayden *FINALLY*

After I got home from CC, I brought my Cayden downstairs to walk. Time to spend TIME with my Cayden boy... Played and entertained him. I could tell that Cayden today was very happy. Kept laughing and smiling...

I wonder if he thinks "FINALLY MY MUMMY IS TAKING CARE OF ME". Hee... ;p

Son, hope to make up to you in time to come... ;)

Cayenne's 1st Day @ CC! 1st December 2010, Wednesday

So fast! Today has arrived! I woke up early... *Yawn* So long didn't wake up so early. ;p

Had my breakfast & coffee before preparing Cayenne's milk feed for her. She was still sleeping. Intention was to let her join in the breakfast with her new little friends @ 8.30am. But we were late. Hee... I woke her up around 8.15am for her milk. & got ready her uniform...

BUT got a hiccup! (EXPECTED).. Cayenne told me that she didn't want to go to School. She didn't want the uniform... Started to cry.. *1st Heartpain*

Told her gently that she was going to School to play with many little friends... Still shook her head indicating "NO", told her the uniform was her FAVOURITE colour... Her red/pink/purple bag etc... "NO" was what I got from her this morning...

Tried not to show her my "panickness" & heartpain, kept encouraging her and reminding her what I had promised her that was, to pick her up after her lunch and bath. Mummy would sure turn up to wait for her... Slowly she agreed to change into her uniform... What a relief...

Took some pictures before leaving home

Along the way, I carried my little Baby... When we reached the School, I was telling myself to keep cool.

Cayenne wanted to have breakfast. Though we were late, the teacher still let her have one small bowl of cereal. Cayenne insisted that I joined in the class. The teacher told me to accompany her awhile... While she was sitting to have her breakfast, I stood @ one side. Cayenne kept looking up, she wanted to see me around... Then she stood up and held my hand said that she wanted to play. I told her excitedly that she could join the little friends to play... Mummy couldn't stay in the classroom as no other Mummies stayed. But my little Baby kept pulling my hand. She strongly sensed that it was truth that afterall her Mummy wasn't going to stay in the classroom with her that she started to look worried and scared... I could tell from her eyes... *2nd heartpain*

Quickly grabbed my arms and wanted me to carry. I carried her and she started to cry... The teacher came and carried her away from me. She cried badly... My eyes got teary... Almost wanted to cry out as well! *3rd heartpain*

I walked out of the centre but still loitering around but I made sure Cayenne didn't see me around... Soon her crying stopped... But I caught her looking up to the window... Probably trying to look for me... *4th heartpain*

I cried eventually when I was walking away from the centre... Felt really really heartpain. Didn't know how to describe why I felt this way...

I called the principal to check on Cayenne, Jane (Principal) told me that Cayenne was doing good. Did cry again due to a boy crying so badly that some of the earlier 2008 kids were also affected by him. The teacher pacified Cayenne and she stopped her crying. Jane also informed me that the teacher feedback to her that Cayenne listens to reasoning... Which is good. I'm proud of my Baby... ;)

Went back to fetch her @ 12pm and she was very excited to tell me what she was doing in the centre. She told me she ate lunch, papaya, play toys, play slide, cried in School etc... So cute... I asked her if she still want to go to School, I heard a loud "YES"!

Well, let hope tomorrow will be better!!! ;)