1st MRT trip for Cayden!

Hee... Cayden's 1st time on the MRT! ;)

Brought Double Cs to Tanjong Pagar to meet up with my ex-colleagues for lunch. Didn't get to chat much with Double Cs around, how to? ;p

After lunch, went to IP to collect my order from GNC & bought 2 essential oils from Perfect Potion. We went home straight after that as Cayden was kinda of cranky as he has been in the stroller for quite long. So I let him OUT of the stroller & he was so happy to walk around. ;) Lucky Cayenne wanted to sit in the stroller, if not, I wondered how I could manage with her and pushing the stroller at the same time. I'm still not yet a SUPER Mummy. Haha...

She sat throughout the journey to Jurong East before she wanted to come down. So no choice, let Cayden sat back, oh god, Cayden cried so loud with his mighty voice! I felt so embarrassed! My helper carried him out but he was still crying. I felt that there were so MANY pairs of eyes watching at us... I took over and immediately Cayden stopped crying. & then Cayenne started her crying game as well! She cried when she saw me carrying Cayden, kept saying "Mummy cannot carry 弟弟, Mummy carry baby."

Quickly passed Cayden back to my helper. Sorry, Son. Cayden cried again when he knew that I was passing him over to the helper. I carried Cayenne and told her off sternly. Then she stopped her crying. I tried to pacify Cayden and lucky he stopped his crying.

What a trip for ME!

Backdated Photos on 09th August 2010, Monday

We brought Double Cs to Airport again for dinner, this time went to T2 for sushi. Initially was quite hestitated to eat japanese food as I THOUGHT Cayenne didn't like it. We brought her a few times to eat japanese food, she always fussed around, refused to eat this and that. But this time surprisingly, she ate quite alot! We ordered quite alot and she ate quite a fair bit! Of cos my Darling Cayden boy also got to eat! Haha...

Photos taken outside the restaurant. Cayenne wanted to hug her little brother. ;)

Farm Visit & Qian Hu Aquarium Visit on Sunday morning, 08th August 2010

Arranged with my brother & Jann to bring the kids to farm. Brought them to see goats. Oh boy, super duper smelly! I jokingly told Jann that we should have brought masks along! ;p


After that, we went to Qian Hu to see fishes. Cayenne was very excited to see so many fishes. & My nephew Andre was really sweet to get Cayenne a balloon. ;)

Casual Shots of Double Cs at home...

Photos with Uncle Justin

Asked Cayenne to stand beside Justin to take photo. My girl is SHY! Haha...

CCK Lot 1 again...

Brought Double Cs and helper to Lot 1 again in the Saturday Evening, 14th August 2010.

Went for dinner and do some shopping.

Terrible Nights for ...

ME! ;(

Don't know if it is because of the lunar 7th month that Cayenne starts her "nonsense" again OR due to the medicine that she has been taking for the past 1 month... She seems to be uncontrollable, super active & "create troubles" for me... Sigh... I'm getting physically and emotionally drained out especially when I'm still coughing away. *TIRED*

For the past few nights, Cayenne doesn't want me to lie down to sleep with her. Not because she wants to sleep on her own, she wants me to sit down to pat her or sometimes stand up and carry pat her! She will say "Mummy cannot lie down, Mummy sit down/stand up and pat." Sometimes I give in to her requests, but at certain times when I'm really really very tired, I refuse. She will make noise and start to be cranky. Of cos I have my way to handle this little girl of mine.

And if midnight if she wakes up and doesn't see me in the room (Sometimes I'm patting Cayden back to sleep), she will scream for me. Then she will cling onto me lying on my legs with her legs at my stomach area and sleep. I think this way she feels secure that I will not "disappeared". I have to sit up with my back leans against the bedrest and sleep. Can you imagine that? I have been sleeping in this manner for the past few nights!

Cayden has been having blocked nose these 2 nights. He also cannot sleep well, on and off will cry abit. Sometimes needs me to pat him back to sleep. I try not to disturb my helper during the midnight. So I have been doing a few midnight shifts for these few nights. Because of his blocked nose that he cannot sleep well, I have to carry pat or even let him lie on my body at least 2 hours before he can fully deep sleep.

I'm like a production worker, working on shifts. Meaning, after handling either Big or Small C, the other will tend to wake up. So I don't have good night sleep at all. In fact, none since birth of Cayenne. Am a super light sleeper, abit of noise/sound, I will definitely jump up from bed.

Because of the cough, lack of sleep & physically and emotionally tired out, my temper blows. Alittle bit of issue will make me so fed up and easily flare up. I really don't like myself now. How should I control and curb my temper?