Mummy's Thoughts - Part 7

Ever since my helper is here, I'm not very happy or comfortable with a stranger in the house. No doubt she is here to help me in taking care of my kids and do housework plus cooking. She indeed helps to lessen my Dad's burden in cooking the meals. (My Dad is the family's cook). So my helper does most of the cookings now.

Am trying to get used to her in our house, I believe my helper is trying her very best to adapt into my family & especially towards me. I'm a very fast paced person. Everything must do FAST & clean. So I believe she feels some stress. But sometimes I wonder if Indonesian helpers are SLOWER? Or Am I too FAST? ... ... ...

Been telling my helper to do things faster in terms of housework while Cayden is sleeping. Reason being that she can have some or more rest during the day.

Yesterday, my SIL called me up & she thought that I was napping. I told her "FAT HOPE!" I was doing some housework. My SIL was surprised, she thought my helper should be the one doing. Haha... I thought so too! But somehow or rather, I ended up doing housework even with my helper around. What an ironical joke!

1st Saturday without Dennis around...

Had an extremely BUSY SHACKED TIRED Saturday. No joke. Woke up ard 6.30am & been "working" non-stop till 9pm. Arghh...

I shouldn't have stated 6.30am woke up, since I gotta to handle Cayden during the midnight. Haha...

Well anyway, nowadays Cayenne is like a koala to me. Have to carry her if go downstairs & even @ home, Jann wanted to bring her go downstairs to at least let me had a short breather also cannot. Initially she wanted to go but as I needed to talk to Jann about something, Cayenne saw me (They were already outside the gate & Cayenne wanted Jann to carry her) & refused to go down with Jann. Kept holding onto the gate. Sigh...

This young lady lately very strange. Don't want to wear her diapers. Kinda of use alittle harsh tone and force on her. "Ah..." She cried. Cayenne is such a Missy, alittle bit will cry or scream. Can't stand her man! Worse is that those are fake cries and screams...

So today got "scolded" by me at least 3 times? Or more? Felt so tired, really. So many things on hand that I have to take care of. I handled Cayenne mostly while my helper took care of Cayden. But on and off, I still gotta to care for my son right. Just couldn't let my helper do all the job right. & on top of that, I need to supervise and TRAIN my helper to be multi-task in order not to waste time. Time to me now is simply too precious! Haha...

Busy till 12pm then took my breakfast! Could you believe that?! & my lunch... 3plus in the afternoon. Dinner is normal time 7plus in the evening...

Conclusion of my 1st Saturday without Dennis around (TO HELP of cos) : I almost went "mad"! ;p Lucky Jann was around to help me with my 2 kids. Thanks, Jann! Really appreciated your help.

Am thinking right now... Am I cut to be a SAHM? Hmm...

Effects of 6-in-1 Jab, Rotavirus and Reducing Milk Intake

Well, I suspect there are some "after jabs" effects on my Cayden. Doctor mentioned that after jab, might cause fever. Nurse asked me to feed Cayden 1 dose of fever medicine when I reached home but I didn't. Cos I wanted to find out whether the jabs will cause Cayden fever. For Cayenne, no fever at all whenever she got jabs. So I wish to find out for Cayden.

From Thursday (Jab + Rotavirus) till yesterday, my observation is Cayden got very sleepy during the whole day. After feed, sleep. Checked on his temperature, no fever, no crankiness. *Glad*

Talking about milk intake. As I mentioned in my earlier post, I reduced Cayden's milk intake from 120ml to 100ml. Well, the interval of milk feed is the same! And true enough, after reducing the intake, Cayden spit less milk. In fact, out of 8 to 10 feeds, probably only spit a tiny bit in 1 feed.

A sad moment... Yesterday...

28th August 09, Friday...

Went to pick up Cayenne in the evening. On the way to Lily's place, was worried that I might cry. Me full of water. Keke...

Lily dressed Cayenne up in a very nice pretty dress. So happy to see Cayenne so pretty. ;)

Lily told Cayenne to obey me, must be filial, must eat & drink well. Lily gave Cayenne a very tight hug & kiss. Suddenly I felt tears just @ the edge of my eyes... Am always an emotional aquarian. Lily started to tear abit, upon seeing that, my tears flowed out as well. What an tearful event for us. Tried very hard to control my tears. As I always mentioned in my blog, Lily is really a nice and friendly lady who dotes and loves my Cayenne alot. Felt sad that Cayenne no longer under her care. Because of Lily, I've learnt and still learning to be a good Mummy.

I understand there are stages of people coming in and out of our lives. Guess this is life. Not only Cayenne feel attached to Lily. (Cayenne calls Lily "mama" which I'm not jealous or unhappy at all) Afterall, Lily has been treating Cayenne like her own daughter (I could tell). I feel attached to Lily too. *Shy* Guess it is hard to find someone whom u can trust and confide into. I'm glad that I found one.This is FATE. ;)

Thanks Lily!

Lily has been a great help to me. I'm very fortunate and blessed to find someone like her to take care of my Cayenne. Lily is the 1st and only baby sitter whom I met and on the spot decided to let her take care of Cayenne. Lily is such a cheerful and happy lady. She is always so positive in her thinking. Be it family life, husband-&-wife relationship. She has been giving very good and constructive advices to me.

Her husband, 3 lovable kids & her eldest daughter's boyfriend all love and dote on Cayenne. Cayenne is such a fortunate girl to receive so much love and attention from them. Really happy to see my Cayenne has been so happy with them.

I really appreciate their kindness, attentiveness and concern for my Cayenne.

Thanks again, Lily!

Mummy's Thoughts - Part 6

Today is the "last day" @ Lily's place. From next Monday onwards, Cayenne will be officially at home under my care. Look very forward to spending time with Cayenne but at the same time, feel anxious, scared... Haha... You guys must be wondering what is there to be scared of. I scare I do not know Cayenne's needs and wants. I scare I might not be able to take good care of her. I scare I'm not as attentive and caring as Lily. Hmm... I sound like I'm so useless. Guess I'm putting alot of pressure onto myself. But I must admit that I do not have much confidence in taking care and handling of children. Playing/entertaining kids is my strong point only. ;p

Lily knows Cayenne best cos she has been with Lily since she is 6 wks old. I only take care of her during nights and weekends. So if to compare, Lily knows and understands my little Darling more and well.

Now with Cayden, I have to make sure I strike a balance between them. In whatever situation, I'll try my best & put in my best effort to take care of my Double Cs.

Cayenne's Weight

Cayenne's weight now is 10.2kg. I wonder when she will hit the 11kg. Hmm... ... ...